God has the answer for my prayer

Finally, i guess it wasn't my blind instinct to quit KLIUC because eventually i have the answer for what i have been questioned it. Allah knows everything. And i happened to see that KLIUC isn't that amazing as Indahati and I thought it was. As soon as i finished with my theatre, i googled everything to do with Communication and began to realize, i have wasted quarter of my year doing nothing. I told mom i wanna start college as soon as posibble cause most of my friends already started theirs. peer pressure. I googled the nearest college. first things that came up to my mind is, i dont wanna stay in hostel. i wanna stay with mom and jaga her since i'm the only childs left. sheeesh. doesn't it sounds pretty obvious that imma spoilbrattt? HEHE. KLIUC have the courses that really suits me. neither Corporate Communication nor English for Professional Communication. so i decided to take Corp Comm since the job demand is quite demanding. HEHE and i become extremely excited because my highschool senior, Haziqah was taking the same courses too. so i was thinking, 'oh at least i have friends there' but sadly, we're not taking the same subject except for Customer Relation, Sir Azmi. yes, the reason why i didnt enjoyed my studies is because of him. bujang terlajak yang miang. i mean, c'mon i dont think it is make sense from a pilot and then become a lecturer in KLIUC? i dont think the profession field is the same. i assume he was kicked out from MAS because of the miangness and unproffesional'ness. lol. oh i remember he said 'kalau u ada masalah dengan bf u mesti cari abg Jas' who are you to predict what the future upholds? and why are u calling urself abg Jas while ur real name is AZMI? i can spell i can read and i can write, forGodsake. for some reason, this makes me feel sadder. lecturer tak serupa lecturer. kenapa lah sampai begini rupaaa :( i tekad and nekad kan semangat eventhough i started 2months late and i missed the orientation week. thus, it is relevant enough for me to depends on somebody.. i said to myself. 'this is the hardship, and i have to face it no matter what' but until whennnn? Tia tak kuat sangat punnnn ! when i asked ''class cancel ke, kelas di awal kan ke, kelas di mana, presentation bila, assignment apa, correction apa, bila due date, kenapa tak diberitahu ada test harini?'' either i want it or not, i have to. i do my test miserably without doing any revision, just based on my gerenal knowledge and what i have learnt in class. when Miss give us marks, i get 2/10. and i was like whattttt, two over ten ?! funnily, most of my friends get 0 and 0.5 over 10. and i was shocked to find out the highers mark is 4 and i'm the second highers in the class. what are they ? then i started to wonder 'they should have known better cause they knows there is an exam but why most of them get 0? diorang ni nak belajar ke tak nak. ni ke kawan-kawan yang Tia nak belajar sampai sem6 nanti?' when i asked them why i didnt know anything about whats going on, why didnt u guys text me, do u have the teaching plan and whatnot. wanna know the best answer i get from one of them?

'' Asal kau tak tau ha puk*m*k ?! ''

i suddenly feel like all my nerves stop functioning. speechless. i feel like crying. i feel like im a major loser but i'm a new student, what are u guy expecting from me? bukan kah kalau tak mahu bertanya sesat jalan? does my questions irritated u guys? i hate to dispute everything that happened but my classmates are so uncivilized. they cursing cursing cursing alll the times. when they're bored, they cursed. when they're sleepy, they cursed. when they're happy, they cursed. i thought people cursing to express their anger? hmm. maybe that is something to ponder on kan. i dont feel i belong to that society. but the boys. they treat me well. and i thank for that. they makes me wanna stay but the girls, they dont like me, me either. but not all. some of them are greatt, lulu, amanda, tya, apple bubu. they're nice. seriously. they are wayyy mature than the rest ! they make me wanna stay, but the rest. hmmm. so its very pathetic to deal with and now, i've gotten really good at figuring out cliques just by noticing the way they dress and act. At least i learn something new in lifeee. whatever it is, life must go on :)

happy macam ni. tiap hari melompat-lompat. wahh :D